From hostage to dictator

Hostage situation underway.

Backstory

The stuff moms are made of

• An endless heaping of unconditional love,         
• gallons of unruffled patience, 
• the gentlest smile to calm the frenziest minds,     
• empathy to understand the most irrational thought/fear/pain of their child, 
• cheerleading prowess,   
• acceptance of their child just as they are
• selflessness in every thought and action.                                                                                                  I surely thought I was all that and way much more till ......wait for it.....I became a mom!Yes, that's when I got my wake up call and what a wrong number that was! I realized after much attempts that I was failing 'Parenting 101' miserably.I know the above list sounds too perfect.Many moms must be rolling their eyes at the list going "Sure,when pigs fly! Have you met my kid? Sounds more of a fit with Zelda ,the 22nd century bionic mombot!" But in all actuality ,I do know many moms who embody these qualities ,they have their weak moments like any human does,  but they always rise to the occasion for their kids,treating them with the deserved love and respect. I didn't even have a quarter of the qualities listed above to stay afloat!No wonder my cupcakes didn't rise.(I am an avid baker ,hence I came up with the baking analogy) Here I was thinking it was the cupcakes' fault,when really it was the oven that was all conked out!!! If your oven is set to 500 F all the time,your delicate batters are bound to get scorched even if the basic ingredients that make a cake are there.Time to install the new energy efficient Model.                                                                                                                                                            Introspection can help you see things in a whole new light.You begin to find answers to all those frustrating WHYs. It is also very humbling.It makes you take a deep,hard look at the person in the mirror and acknowledge those bitter truths about yourself that earlier you were blind to.Its hard to introspect in the heat of the moment because it takes a calm mind. Writing helps me decode my frazzled mom emotions into an understandable language and then make sense of it.It takes roughly about 2 months to form a new habit.My old parenting habits need to be kicked to the curb and replaced with the NEW .                                                                                                              So I had to write this blog for 2 reasons.                       
•  First of all Therapy is tooooo expensive but blogging is free,can't beat free therapy!   
• Secondly and most importantly -that ELUSIVE PERFECT CUPCAKE.

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